*SONG FROM THE ARCHIVES* Tears Me Apart is a song that I wrote and produced in 2013 about the anger I felt over a broken friendship... -Lyrics- That hurt quite a bit Yea, had quite a fit Least thing I expected when I finally let you step in my world Was that you would one day change, keeping me at arm’s length Or further Nonexistent, in your eyes Hypnotized by fear and greed I was always there when you needed me But you chose to believe hypocrisy and foolishness And just bounced - just, gone What am I supposed to do with this? Cuz like, I’m not supposed to curse though I want to “Golly gee” in this hurt, it just don’t do it But I won’t compromise my faith for no one Cuz you weren’t there, and you don’t care So forget you Then I’m told I’m supposed to forgive you And I’m like, what? No! Tell me that’s not what you said I am not the one who played games with these people’s head Why would I just come and offer them all of my love Just to be crucified for nothing? Oh yea… that’s what Jesus did Why won’t you heal the wounds you made? You threw something real and rare away Still I hope no one treats you wrong I’m guessing that you’re betting that I’m long gone The truth is you’re always in my heart Though I no longer know who you are Tell me what we had was not real Now it’s gone and it still Tears me apart (Goodbye now, so long, au revoir now) Oh, and you know the funny thing is I would do it over again ‘Jaida, I’ve noticed Bitterness seems to be setting in Your patience is wearing thin Now be angry, but don’t sin’ Oh sorry I’ll just cover up my scars You’re holier than thou, now aren’t ya? Speaking when you don’t know partial You don’t know this pain and darkness Narcissists You don’t know the half of it Grieving process, that’s what this is Lies were told, words were twisted Gone ballistic? Yep And I will ‘til I let go Stuck, ‘til I shed those People from my best memories, like Sitting on the front porch dreaming dreams Watching shooting stars, telling everything Rocking on the stage making crowds scream Do you remember those times? Do you think of me? Probably not It’s cool though Whatever you find, like Nemo I hope you’re happy; glad to have been Part of the tale that He wrote And though I’m upset and heartbroke Our friendship now is history I’ll learn to forgive - it’s what He did And I’ll do for you what was done for me Why won’t you heal the wounds you made? You threw something real and rare away Still I hope no one treats you wrong I’m guessing that you’re betting that I’m long gone The truth is you’re always in my heart Though I no longer know who you are Tell me what we had was not real Now it’s gone and it still Tears me apart (Goodbye now, so long, au revoir now) Oh, and you know the funny thing is I would do it over again Wouldn’t wish this pain on my worst enemy Cynical and cold doesn’t suit you well Bitterness don’t look good on me Time to realize that it was all she wrote Doesn’t matter anymore what went wrong You’re gone, and I’ve all but moved on So I’m saying Goodbye now So long Au revoir now Oh, and you know the funny thing is I would do it over again (tears me up) Goodbye now So long Au revoir now Oh, and you know the funny thing is I would do it over again